We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

As the smoke clears, i'll realize the loss

by Habits

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Purchasable with gift card

     

1.
the smoke 01:18
[instrumental]
2.
untitled 03:59
forever lost i wake up screaming how i could've been so fucking careless and let it all rust sometimes the feelings, they never meant to end one mistake can swallow your trust so i roam beneath the city lights thinking what was done and all the fights of battles that i've seen within of all the demons crawling under my skin and when the last rooftop shall fucking fall maybe then i will realize the price of all of those homes that we have built inside of our hearts so i roam beneath the city lights thinking of what was done and all the fights of battles that i've seen within of all the demons crawling under my skin we're so lost within' these walls that we've built inside our homes it's like i'm cursed to roam blindly the dismal trap has always found me so many times i've seen my world falling apart and turning cold so many times i've seen my goals slipping away with the setting sun say goodbye say goodbye this grain of regret is filling my veins and i can't forget the times we've had this grain of regret is filling my mind there's no escape i'm burning inside say goodbye to all the good times say goodbye because they never last they just never last.
3.
of misery 06:38
this spark has turned to flame and my heart went ablaze and in the moment the smoke is all what's left of this arson when you're young there's nothing more than to be brave and to explore now you aspire to adult goals but nothing nothing has ever changed and all of this is just illusion every time i pass these homes i look into the windows striving to see your reflection in the mirror 'cause sometimes it means a world to me and if i could i'd pass through all of this once again 'cause the moments of solace they mean much more than misery than misery those times your eyes mean so much more than misery your touch your face in this crowd when time makes its call leaving old friends behind faces fade away and i don't know are we selfish or just blind these relations are so fragile that it hurts to know people that you used to love are gone and washed away by this flow by this flow all of the moments that you gave me brought me to life all of the times you looked my way all of this led to demise your precious self you gave me and i will always remember that fire in your eyes all of the times i've been alone feeling empty in a broken home i've been drowning my grief in this bottle there's a reason why i drink take your grief and let it sink this words they mean nothing without your actions my past it haunts me but i'll never be more afraid (of anything) than of this monument of broken dreams called "today" this city sleeps but i'm awake still searching for the answers those words and what they meant we all hide in our castles afraid to have a contact locking in ourselves or building this pretty picture -- this city sleeps but i'm awake still searching for the answers those words and what they meant so this is how it always ends the taste of wine and last embrace on and on and on again always keep your promises this is the end my friend.
4.
every day is much the same i'm counting hours tryin' to escape the reality of this solitude i've trapped myself in dying to live suffering to love no more no more no more i keep repeating this no more no more no more every fucking day i walk this hollow streets rose petals beneath my feet this burning sun has never smiled to me no calm in all-time storm and i just, i just can't learn all you forked tongues out there i wanna see you return to hell and i'm not being self-important i just treat you treat you all the same who fuckin' cares about look or the hair stop drinking my blood i think you've had enough can't crush these walls but we may find the doors that will lead us to the great unknown maybe next one will lead me straight to your heart now tell me will i see you standing over next door can you trust me again? please don't lock this door...in my fucking way.
5.
let me tell you a story of love and hate, fear and lust of brothers breakin' vows, tearing their trust these stories are never the same and every misery comes out with her name these dark times have put me to the test i failed in many ways having nothing left when the weight of the world is falling down on you on you there's nothing much that you can do neck deep in guilt burnt by the sorrow and in the end i won't lie and won't pretend 'cause i've betrayed one of the best now i'm paying the price doesn't matter what i do these words mean shit to you this bond of greatest kind i've lost yours and blew mine 'cause i've defined the price for a friend's back knife now the greatest deep embraced me and i'm the only one to blame so if you have a good friend make sure you hold on to him and don't make the wrong moves just like i did and now your voice has fade but in my head it still resonates and now we haven't spoke for days but in my head your voice still resonates i'm going to miss you.
6.
the loss 05:52
when the morning comes and i wake up suddenly i realize that the best moments of my life have passed they just died and in such moments of despair i can see no other way nothing comes into my head and the silence is deafening so i sit back and i watch as the years go by i'm not the same and you're not the one and in such moments of despair i can see no other way nothing comes into my head and the silence is deafening these black clouds have swallowed me whole and i try i try to run back to my home but where the home is if you fucking know then i will call you the lucky one and i'll try to let you go the heart, the ache where you've died or where you've stayed these moments rush into my head and i don't seem to understand when the smoke clears i'll realize the loss will you remember me when this curtain fucking falls as the smoke clears i'll realize the end will you remember me my friend i never wanted to live this way i never wanted to end this way i never wanted to become the man you hate you wear camouflage but i still can see your eyes i burn my fingers just to have one more last touch and i keep telling to myself this time will be the last but i am falling through the days though i'm doing my best for every moment that we have shared these words will show the way i cared forever thankful i will carry you in my chest will you remember me in the very end as the smoke clears i'll realize the loss will you remember me when this curtain fucking falls.

credits

released May 21, 2013

recorded at Bayroot studio
mixed and mastered by Jay Maas at Getawayrecording

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Habits Kiev, Ukraine

contact / help

Contact Habits

Streaming and
Download help

Report this album or account

If you like Habits, you may also like: